God knows me

The day before the PA arrived was a tough day for me.  We were on day 8 with no word.  We had been holding this enormous secret for SOOOOO long and I was just exhausted.  I was ready for the burden to be lifted.  No word.

That afternoon I called CCAI to talk to them about their medical mission trips and how I might best serve- if they could even use me (ER nurse).  I was transferred to Xiao (yes I love the name) in that area to discuss specifics since she was the one to talk to.

We started talking about the Lilly Orphan Care Center and the different ways that medical personnel are used.  For this specific area it sounds like more of a consulting role- teaching the staff what to look for, how to use tylenol and motrin appropriately, when to take the babies for further evaluation etc.  I explained to Xiao that I was indeed interested in going to the Lilly Orphan Care Center because my son started out there.

I was not expecting anything that followed!

She asked me what my son’s Chinese name was.  When I told her, her response was, “Oh yah, I know your son!  I took him to the New Hope foster home myself.  He was with me from LouHe to Beijing.  As a matter of fact I just got back last week from over there and I saw him.  He is getting fat and happy. He isn’t the same baby.”

Through the tears I thanked her for all that she does and told her that I was sure that we would be talking again soon about the project.  Honestly the rest of the conversation was a bit of a blur.  I was too busy reaching for tissue.

The next day our PA and 797C arrived in the mail.

God knows me personally and is taking care of me through this emotionally tough time.  I called to forget myself and my troubles by planning a medical mission trip- forget yourself in the service of others.  I know he was looking out for me- especially on my hard day!

Our first care package

Today I was able to send Kai his first care package!  It was a great feeling knowing that he will soon be able to see what we look like and know that he has parents!  I know that his understanding will be limited, but it provides a great deal of relief to be able to send him his own belongings. I know that he is being well cared for and I can see it in the updates on the foster home website(www.hopefosterhome.com).  I guess the Momma in me is starting to come out.  I just need to know that he has clothes, toys, and stuff that is HIS.  (I have this strange need to make sure that he has socks and shoes too- I have no idea where that is coming from)  We did send him some goldfish crackers for him to share with his friends and a little something for the caretakers.

 

The M&M’s are for the caretakers.  American chocolate is a big hit in China but since it is so hot outside this was the best way to get chocolate there- melts in your mouth right.

 

I love the fact that he can wear “American” clothes.  No split pants in sight on the website!  That opened up the door for this Momma to help outfit my little guy!  Thanks for the overall outfit from Mom.  It will make it’s debut in China! 

The disposable cameras are a must.  I want to know what all of his friends look like.  Who are his caretakers?  What does he do with his time during the day?  Where does he sleep?  I have so many questions about his life right now.  Hopefully I will get a little glimpse from these little cameras.  I am so excited to be a Mom finally!  I am ready to have my little guy home in my arms!  This is the best connection that I can have for now- so it will have to do.  Ray has limited me to one care package a month until travel due to the cost to mail, but it is a great piece of mind for me.